Let Freedom Ring
Let Freedom Ring!
"Every time you suppress some part of yourself or allow others to play you small, you are in essence ignoring the owners manual your creator gave you and destroying your design." ~ Oprah Winfrey
On March 11, 1953, I entered the world as what the Human Energy Design System calls an Emotional Manifesting Generator Type. In Human Design Language, this means I was born with enormous potential and passion to express myself, to verbally communicate, and physically manifest through EMOTIONAL self-expression.
Here’s what’s interesting. Now, I entered a family that consisted of Human Design types different to mine (other than my dad). I had a Projector Type mother, and two older Projector Type siblings. Therefore, what I brought into the family was a completely different and unexpected energy dynamic; one that was understood by my father, but totally unfamiliar to my mother and siblings.
As I began to navigate my world and physical surroundings as a young baby and child, I was challenged in learning HOW (the ‘appropriate’ way) to express myself, my power and my dynamic, but sometimes obstinate energy. Therefore, I became frustrated. At times, I even became angry. What I discovered was that my desire to emotionally express myself wasn’t always welcome. My enthusiastic and emotional energy wasn’t always embraced. My way of communicating through sound and movement frequently was met with resistance, it was ignored and sometimes controlled.
Being this Emotional Manifesting Generative energy Type that I was, and not fully understanding my power and impact on others, I rebelled. My emotional expression got louder and louder. In learning to express myself, I actually discovered along the way how to throw a temper tantrum! OMG, this felt SO good. I was a pure unbridled emotional flow. THIS for me was pure expression of freedom. I literally got down on the floor, and kicked and screamed others into responding to me.
Respond they did. They relieved themselves of my emotional impact by leaving the room, or worse yet, dousing me under an extremely cold shower to get MY attention. This IMMEDIATELY stopped my flow and, it imprinted me forever with the belief that it was NOT okay to ‘be’ emotional and in my natural flow.
From this point forward, I began to question my emotions. I questioned EVERYTHING. I questioned my feelings. I questioned my natural desire to verbally express myself. I questioned my desire to move, to vibrate, to sing, to dance and to share my emotional spirit and enthusiasm with others.
I was told to sit down, be still, and be quiet. I was asked to not talk, be seen or heard, to speak only when spoken to. I was told many of my behaviors were inappropriate. The most confusing of all, I was told that I really didn’t feel the way of was feeling! When I felt angry, sad, moody or even happy, I was told NOT to feel this way. Out of a state of total confusion, and the intense desire to feel safe and be loved, I began to (try and) hide, stuff and deny my feelings. I bottled my emotions. I learned NOT to be me!
WELL, for anyone who knows me today, stuffing my emotions and my natural desire to be in action when the spirit moves, causes me to bristle. It stifles my freedom. It’s next to impossible.
As this resistance became my reality, I looked for acceptable outlets for my expressions. I danced, tapped, took jazz and ballet. I swam, played tennis and basketball. I took aerobics, became a personal trainer. I joined anything that allowed me to physically and emotionally express myself. I sang in the shower, in church and the school chorus. I did anything I could find to release my verbal and emotional expression passionately, creatively, and enthusiastically and STILL I met with resistance.
I heard words that described me as, “intense, rebellious, loud, moody, obsessive, obstinate, independent, sometimes flighty and even driven”. At times I felt like a cork under water. I was trying so hard to hold back my enormous range of emotions trying NOT to feel. I was shrinking my spirit. I was ‘suppressing a part of myself, and allowing others to play me small’.
Happy Ending: ENTER HUMAN ENERGY DESIGN. The year was 2003. My Projector Type (guide and director) sister introduced me to the most amazing, catalytic, and personally empowering, freedom producing tool on the planet. I UNPLUGGED! My soul was set FREE. In one initial encounter, I was re-introduced to my personal truth. I was validated. I was inspired. I was reminded and empowered EMOTIONALLY TO BE ME!
Through this genetic blueprint and imprinting of my human energy design chart, I re-discovered myself. I re-discovered my soul, and my life has not been the same since. As the saying goes, “free at last, free at last, thank god almighty I am free at last.”
My personal blueprint in the Human Design System is an Emotional Manifesting Generator. What does this mean? It means my authentic genetic capacity is to be in my EMOTIONAL FLOW, to INITIATE and MANIFEST
whatever I desire. However, my life STRATEGY in ‘being’ this way requires that I do this ONLY in RESPONSE.
Therefore, when something shows up in my life that I get to respond to, when something appears that blows my southern skirt up, I WAIT and then I tune into my gut, and I RESPOND. I RESPOND to what makes me feel good. I RESPOND to what I’m in the mood to do.
So, FINALLY, rather than hiding, denying, stuffing or suppressing my intentions and emotions, rather than forcing things to happen to prove myself worthy or make others happy, I get to RESPOND. I invest my time, talents and energy in doing what I love to do and wait for something to show up that I am compelled to respond to. When I ‘DO’ this, when I ‘BE’ this, I enter the flow of life, and I get to Manifest the flow. In fact, I AM THE FLOW!
Katie bar the frickin door! What if life is as SIMPLE as following a STRATEGY; a Decision-Making Strategy designed by YOU at birth? A STRATEGY imprinted into your DNA that when you align with this way of making choices you get to be your authentic self, doing what your natural gifts inspire in order to have a life that is joyful creative and easy.
If you are seeking the owners manual that your creator gave you – let freedom ring – welcome to Human Design. If you are ready for expansion in how you confidently share your gifts and strengths – let freedom ring – welcome to Human Design. If you would like access to your unique energy signature, blueprint and map for creating the personal and professional life you desire – let freedom ring – I invite you to Discover your Human Energy Design. Go on over to the Human Design Tab and request a copy of your own personal Human Design Chart.
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Tuck Self is a SELF-Empowerment and Listening Coach and Catalyst, and a Robbins-Madanes Trained Coach. For 15+ years, she has provided individual and group Coaching Programs, Workshops and Retreats that facilitate personal discovery, development, spiritual growth and authentic living. The foundations of her unique coaching style are Human Design, BG5™ and The Gene Keys and Golden Pathway; Systems that bring powerful insights and strategies for self-illumination, self-love and self-mastery, as well as creating life, love and work that resonate with your heart and soul.Give me a shout out at [email protected].
